Wednesday

First Time Legacy Leavers

I am a first~generation~legacy~leaver. My mother, bless her heart, has been here for me in very real, practical ways. And I honor her, and will not speak ill, regardless. All that to say, she did not pass down a vision of a godly mother to me. But oh, how I bless the Lord's Name for all that I endured! It made me who am I today, and I've decided that that is not so bad.. {smiles}
Because I do not have an example, I've prayed for the Lord to reveal and guide my hands and heart, my mind and soul, to God willing lead these precious souls through the Pearly Gates.

First, I am not to play the Holy Spirit. I lead my life and trust the Lord for the rest. Because my husband has not given up all of his ways for the Lord YET, I am sometimes discouraged, but in the depths of my soul I know there is hope to be had.. Hope for us all!

So I spend time with Hope. The children see me pray, worship, listen to sermons, read my Bible, call on the Lord in the midst of chaos.. and so on.

I extend grace to the children... Having a nature that almost always wants the opposite of what is right and true is difficult to live with, and harder to understand. If I can train myself in the Word and seek the Lord in all I do, I will take on His person. They will see what godliness looks like. Hearing about godliness will not be enough to woo anyone. These precious children see who we are behind the closed doors. I strive for a meek and quiet spirit, and it may not be my way naturally, but I can heed this call and with the help of the Lord train my ways. Not only does the body need exercise, so does the soul and character of a person.
So I'm gentle with them. Correcting and training, of course! But also forgiving and warm.. Very warm..

And we read our Bibles together, they ask questions and we flesh it out. Lord knows I do not have all the answers, but when we pray we know answers will come. We have faith, they see the twinkle of faith in my eyes.

I respect my husband {and I pray every day for the Lord to make this so!} I honor him before their little eyes, when he's around and when he's not. I don't tell him little white lies when they can plainly see the truth {or otherwise}.. I work at our marriage, showing them that relationships take work, patience, and so much grace. I pray for my husband when he's at work, they hear me and smile. I'm affectionate with him and cater to him when he's home.

Yes, us tired moms need catering also, hopefully you will be catered to by your beloved. My husband, thankfully is very loving, and so my wanting to bless him comes quite easily. And when it doesn't I pray for long term vision. To be able to forgive first to give when I have not much to give.. I ask the Lord to step in and comfort my empty places.
And I pray, pray, pray.. About all things, without ceasing.. I go about the house praying for protection from outside influences, I pray for the children by name that they would be kept pure and His Holy Spirit would reveal Truth to them. I pray for a love of my homemaking work. When I first moved to my home from a City two states away, I was very lonely, and incurred some debt because of it.. All I could do was shop! Or so I thought. I never wanted to be home, alone. But oh, how the Lord worked on me! How He has revealed the profound beauty of simplicity to me! Then after enjoying my calling to be still I struggled with not wanting to do my house work. But then revelation came in the form of perspective.. All these things I have to clean and keep are all blessings! Huge blessings! And the truth is that with modern day conveniences I have it easier than those before me. I'm not making small what a Mom goes through at home. It's work, for sure. But in my own heart I've been given a lens in which to view all of this world, in my home and outside of it. And grumbling and discontentment come to destroy and must be fought.
Likewise, some may be in a season of being outside of the home, don't be discouraged! Let us pray for agreeable spirits, and do our work as for the Lord! With joy and purpose..

My greatest dream is for my daughters to grow into strong women of faith. Keepers of their homes, married to godly men.. Joyful, pleasant, hard~working, God~fearing women. And It starts with me.

Days go slow and years fly by, may we all mature in Christ and not stay stagnant. May we choose over and over again to be present for our families in mind and body. May we do our work with smiles and purpose and hope in the One who looks and sees all we do. May He be pleased, and may we look into His face on that special day and give a good account.

Blessings to you,

Linked up at: Time Warp Wife, Raising HomemakersUnveiled WifeDeep Roots at Home

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